Last month an old friend, Kelly that I had not spoken to in 4 years showed up to my yoga class. 4 years ago there was no fight, no argument. We just stopped talking.
Kelly was apart of my old life. She knew the old me.
The me that needed other’s approval. The life where I felt small, disempowered. The life that allowed me to be involved in abusive friendships & business partnerships.
Kelly did her best to support me while trying to convince me that I was more than the life I was living. I was more than the abusive “friends” had convinced me. But at the time, I wasn’t ready to hear it.
You see, listening to Kelly would mean that I needed to make changes in my life that I wasn’t ready to make. It would mean leaving a job & people that I depended on to tell me the right decisions for my life. I would have to trust myself and at the time, that was one of the scariest thoughts & ideas!
It was easier to stop talking & returning phone calls. I cut her off.
I finally reached my breaking point a year later when I suffered a stroke. It was only after the stroke that I decided it was time.
Time to trust myself, make my own choices.
Time to live my dreams.
Time to speak with my thoughts & voice.
To rebuild my self esteem that I so graciously gave away.
Today, three years later i happily live with purpose.
There was Kelly, as if a day had not passed. Afterwards she said: Ylonda, you were a strong teacher before but NOW you are even stronger. That person that needed others approval is long gone. Your voice, even your smile is different. I hope you know how far you have come & I am so happy for you.”
✨I didn’t need her approval but it felt good to see her, feel supported and be reminded how far I have come in three years. Thank you Kelly. 😘I plan on NEVER going back.