Vinyasa Cello and Chanting

Courageous Heart

The truth is I still get scared. My heart still feels like it might just beat out of my chest. I cry. I doubt. I have a fleeting thought to run fast, to get out of it. Then I remember who I am. I remember my purpose. So... I keep moving past the fear. The faster my heart beats from here the more I know I have to do it. I have to do it. I have to call on my courageous heart.


Vinyasa Cello and Chanting hits the road.


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What scares you helps you grow

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The choices that have scared me the most are the ones that helped me grow the most. All of them entailed a choice to leave- Leaving a job, closing my business, leaving a close friendship, leaving my beautiful & loving mentor, so I could pioneer my own path. We evolve through loss. Each time, there were months or years of resistance to what I knew I had to do, in order to grab something more for myself, to crack myself open to even more of who I really am. But on the other side of letting go to the things I clung to for comfort and safety, was awakenings to abundance in my life that leave me in awe. I see that I am worthy and stronger than I once believed possible.What the ego fears, the soul craves. What the ego resists, the soul needs. Have the courage to listen to your soul’s calls whether they are whispers or wake up calls to be who you are meant to be. Remember what scares you helps you grow.

Sound can heal.

I know... I can't seem to stop myself! Last week I added a gong to my ensemble. I believe that sound and music is another way of healing ourselves. It can change our brainwaves and emotions. It can transport us back to moments of happiness or to sadness, hurt or anger that we can heal. We can feel it when we turn on the radio and our favorite song is playing. We feel it when we sit quietly and listen to the rain. There is a peace when we are absorbed in its vibrations. We just need to be open enough to let it in. 

Put in your earbuds for this one! I feel a Vinyasa, Cello, Chanting and Soundbath coming soon!

Today

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Today.

Today was the day I thought would never come.

The day that I wanted badly to happen.

The day I was so frighten of that it made me shrink and cry.

The day.

Today.

The day my friends {MY TRIBE}told me I was ready for.

"Ylonda, you should play for my 90 minute yin yoga class!", said yoga teacher and friend Joe Barnett, over dinner. I nodded my head and quickly changed the subject. This is what I did anytime anyone would ask me to play publicly. But he came right back to it.

I looked at one of my best friends (@soul_activist ), my teacher, my mentor. She knew my story. She knew my fear. WITHOUT SPEAKING A WORD, she gave me a look that said, "It's time to prove it to yourself. I believe in you but it's time for you to believe in you."

I knew she was right. THAT LOOK was right. It was time.

AND so I agreed. I had three days to get my head on straight. Three days where my tribe reminded me that it would be fine. They would hear NO excuses. They would however hear my fears. They would acknowledge them, but would not let me enable my fears to consume me.

And so I did it. With only 5 minutes of prepared music, I had to play not from paper, but straight from my heart.

So thank you my tribe.

Thank you for reminding me everyday that I have to follow my heart. Even when it's scary! Even if its 90 minutes and I am use to 5. Thank you for believing in me and walking with me. Thank you for reminding me that PLAY SMALL IS NO LONGER AN OPTION.