HAPPY STROKE-IVERSARY TO ME!!!!!⠀

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⠀Today I celebrate three years of truly living and celebrating life! Thanking GOD for everyday that I get to spend here with everyone that I love, doing what I love.⠀

I have made the same promise to myself for the last 3 years to never take this life for granted ⠀

FEAR OF NOT HAVING TIME

This year I was told by my doctor that since the stroke, I suffer from post traumatic stress disorder.⠀

I ask the question...⠀

Why me? ⠀

A LOT. ⠀

Why did I survive and others were not as lucky. ⠀

I worry that I don’t have much time here. I wake up each day wondering if this is my last day in this body. Is this the last time I tell my kids that I love them. ⠀

I ask myself, if I am no longer here have I prepared them to be strong responsible loving humans?⠀

I worry so much that I feel a sense of urgency to get as much done, as quickly as I can and I exhaust myself. ⠀

So this year I’m adding to my promise.⠀

I promise to never dream too small. ⠀

BUT ⠀

I also promise to not be rushed and rest when I need to. ⠀

The truth:⠀

IF IT IS SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN, THERE WILL BE TIME.⠀

Yes, I will live each moment. But I will live each moment loving myself without a panic of time. ⠀

Heres to a life of HEALTH, LOVE & JOY. ⠀

I look forward to celebrating many more.⠀

(📸- via @moderncle photography by @hilarybovayphotography , makeup by @tondi_theartist )⠀