I have to coach myself every time I play or sing in public. I want to cry or run. The fear is real. So palpable.
I watched my 12 year old daughter go through the same. Friday was her FIRST violin recital. She cried and shook. I know that feeling. She waited for her turn blowing her nose and crying. I was tempted to scoop her up, put her in the car and quickly drive away, but I knew that wasn't the answer. Her teacher asked her, "Do you want me to play with you?" Evelyn bravely told her no and waited, sobbing. The other students sat with her without saying a word.
Crying, she marched on stage and played her piece beautifully.
I was so proud as I watched her walk right through her fears to the other side where pride and courage live. She was determined to not let fear run her life, to be seen and heard even when it's scary. Playing small was NEVER an option.
Photo credit- The talented Brian Keene